Luck

I miss my friends.

How lucky are those that find true friends
I am one of the lucky ones

Tonight via Facetime it shook me to the core of how much this illness has cost me.   And sometimes it's just too much.  I cling to the beauty that I am lucky to have had so much to lose;  I will tell you one thing I have learned, I never needed to get ill to understand this fact.  I have learned a lot about myself and how to push on when you think you can't do it another second.  I have learned what it feels like to be isolated and compassion for those that have never known any other way.  But I never needed to learn what I had to lose, and for anyone out there waiting for some big event to show you, I have learned to find a place in my heart for you that it took you so long.