you think you would get used to it...use to waking up feeling like you have the flu again and again...or feeling good or even great and then pushing the pendulum a bit too far and crashing like slipping on a rock at the top of the mountain - only one little slip and you can fall to the bottom. That's the thing i don't think you can explain to someone - you can learn to cope you can focus on the positive you can try and pretend you feel okay - but you just or at least i don't get used to it. I just can't seem to wrap my head around this some days - or i still get scared that perhaps that something is even more wrong...maybe i have cancer - maybe i have an ulcer - maybe i have and the beat goes on...
